tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24304285971524021512024-02-02T10:21:48.354-08:00Jackie OAddisonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02671333130388735028noreply@blogger.comBlogger149125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2430428597152402151.post-36010062540003995902016-05-30T21:10:00.000-07:002016-05-30T21:10:17.199-07:00paradiso<div style="font-variant-alternates: normal; font-variant-east-asian: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; font-variant-numeric: normal; font-variant-position: normal; line-height: 16px; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: inherit;">I never write about paradise.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">About the region between familiar hands and my own,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">about the person who makes the perilous journey to become my arms and legs,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">who becomes my beacon of bad and better,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">who twines oneself into the chaos I conjure and smiles sweetly at me and kisses across the car console.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I never wrote about how important the person is</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">who will wrap himself in your tarnished gold and fix all the worst parts of you, even if in the sprawl of your backyard, whispering all the good of music and madness. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I never wrote about the people who brave the top button and confess all the good of your smile,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">despite all the times they never text you back,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">despite all the times you let them tug at your confidence,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">they mend it with a vigor unsurmounted by anyone. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">And I guess that’s what paradise is.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">The repair.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Because we’re all unfashionably broken,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">we’re all diseased with disarray,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">but some choose to voice their vaccinations,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">and some choose to walk solemnly away.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Choose the one who believes you are fixable.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Choose the ones who see the glimmer in your uncommon eyes and realize you are worth every ounce of your trouble.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Choose the ones who defy principle to put you on their shelves.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Choose the one who lights fires in your ribcage.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I never wrote about paradise,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">how important paradise was,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">but it was everything.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">It was everything.</span></div>
Addisonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02671333130388735028noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2430428597152402151.post-37228955443140028032016-03-31T16:48:00.000-07:002016-05-30T21:12:51.288-07:00the boy with the scissors<div style="line-height: 16px; text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: inherit;">I warn you, the words may be more malignant than beautiful. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">It’s a story about a boy and his plant, the seed that took so long to sprout even a stem. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">The seed that, at first, grew out wry and wild, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">impeccably sideways. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">It’s about how he, struck down by a quiet rage, cut the withered plant down. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Yet how he, tempered with pain, knew its propensity to grow green and large,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">and let its little leaves sprout once more, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">beautiful this time, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">something important </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">but unrecognizable. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">It’s about how the sun nourished that plant with every ounce of its character, </span></div>
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made it in color, this time,</div>
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reflecting a bud that would surely flower.</div>
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But this story is about an old leaf that grew,</div>
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wry and wild on its lurid green parent,</div>
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a thorn amongst its pretty allies.</div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">And this story is about how one bad leaf made him cut it down again,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">every atom from the stem to its unopened bulb. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">It was a beautiful plant, but we will never know.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">One bad leaf </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">brought hurt to his soul</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">and scissors to his hands.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">So he broke its lifeline and turned the whole thing to death,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">before it ever had</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.00784314); color: #333333; line-height: 30.600000381469727px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">Her soul is not a color, but a riotous scene from Hamlet, steeped with tragedy and the sound of bliss. She leaves the room like a gong, echoing important words and soft compliments, touching things with artistic awe. She walks in a common rhythm, clinching her feet firm to every inch she covers. She has reasons behind every lyric and song, but she won’t tell you unless you ask, with that foreign smirk she settles above a lesser-known layer of wonder. She’s always wondering. </span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.00784314); color: #333333; line-height: 30.600000381469727px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"> She sees people with their rawness and rareness, like fragile memorabilia, placed in prominent places along her brainstem. She’s a lover of the artistic world, of its manic creations and daunting territories, of all things which can only be explained by the words of their creators. She’ll talk you into politics and out of Provo. She’ll make the world larger than your textbook-tight vision, and wear you like fine jewels, and play with your mind until everything is a flower-infused disarray of once-pragmatic thoughts. She will dye your vision a shade of gold, and claim you as a piece of her ascending story. She will turn you into herself, a walking word book banking grand ideas and losing things in her pockets and wowing for hours over the smaller joys. She will turn your children into visionaries, lovers of good light, speakers of clear words, book thieves, best friends. She will turn you into a Something and your life into a lyric. She will write you into infinity and transcend you past your headstone. She will wear you as her favorite sweater, her closest ally; but she will treat you like a lover and smash your silence. </span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.00784314); color: #333333; line-height: 30.600000381469727px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">She will become your greatest friend. </span></span></div>
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<span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0.00784314); color: #333333; line-height: 30.600000381469727px;"><span style="font-family: inherit;">And if she, in all her nervy, flowering perfection between the amorous strands of hair, and the syntax of her sincerity, and the muting of her struggles to sleep on yours, allows you the privilege as her best friend, you must be more than an opinion and a set of eyes.</span></span></div>
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Addisonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02671333130388735028noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2430428597152402151.post-36726952173537738362015-11-21T11:48:00.001-08:002015-11-21T11:48:30.106-08:00the opposite of losthe won't say it,<br />
but I know he wants to.<br />
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you can see it when we're kissing.<br />
or breathing.<br />
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making the kind of eye contact<br />
only people who know each other from one ocean to the next<br />
can make.<br />
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making the kind of eye contact<br />
that only people jumping off park benches<br />
and running through parking lots at midnight can understand.<br />
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it's simple,<br />
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we're simple.<br />
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he's trying to save my life in a movie theater.<br />
I'm trying to save his life in the backseat.<br />
but we make time for each other at 2am on the weekends,<br />
over katniss and peeta,<br />
when I'm shaking and he's making promises,<br />
and telling me his plans<br />
for how to keep me alive.<br />
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we could've fallen asleep there,<br />
on the floor of the parking garage.<br />
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and I want to keep him until the morning,<br />
but thank goodness he's too reasonable to even last the hour.<br />
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thank goodness he's too reasonable<br />
to let me fly away.<br />
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everyone told me he wouldn't figure it out,<br />
but I'm figuring out<br />
how to make him figure it out.<br />
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so we're just two people coming up with solutions.<br />
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solutions for how to fix the gingerbread cake<br />
and how to make friday night work.<br />
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solutions for people who keep calling,<br />
when he's already tuned them out.<br />
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solutions for the doctor visits<br />
and 2AM tests,<br />
and ways to make the walk between our bedrooms<br />
a little shorter.<br />
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and the days longer.<br />
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and our time longer.<br />
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it's simple.<br />
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we're simple.<br />
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and anything but lost.Addisonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02671333130388735028noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2430428597152402151.post-57555975246143209482015-10-10T11:11:00.000-07:002015-10-10T11:11:24.675-07:00boys are supposed to have backbones<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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words are supposed to have meaning.</div>
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kisses are supposed to be soft.</div>
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love is supposed to be infinite,</div>
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and bones are supposed to be tough.</div>
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faith is supposed to slash fear out.</div>
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clouds are supposed to mean rain.</div>
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planes are meant to begin things.</div>
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pills are supposed to dull pain.</div>
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flowers are made to cure sadness,</div>
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people are supposed to move on.</div>
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water is meant to kill fire,</div>
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but fire is supposed to burn long.</div>
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cameras are meant to steal moments.</div>
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confidence is supposed to fire shame,</div>
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but boys are supposed to have backbones</div>
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<br />Addisonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02671333130388735028noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2430428597152402151.post-85166509398614260632015-10-05T22:54:00.002-07:002015-10-05T22:54:24.920-07:00I see you<div style="text-align: center;">
I have this month's exhaust accumulating behind my eyelids,</div>
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a compilation of non-responses, excuses he planted like common roses,</div>
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and the tears that none of you will watch close enough to see.</div>
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My dad calls me his mad genius,</div>
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but the only thing mad is the patience that's clawing apart my ribcage,</div>
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and the only thing genius</div>
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are the promises that are keeping it under my lungs.</div>
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I need to get away from you.</div>
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But that body in my chest is begging me to give you "another day,"</div>
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and those hours add up to create an October of no replies,</div>
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which means I'm wasting my words on a boy who will never catch them.</div>
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The other boy came in to pray with me.</div>
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The other one brought me medicine while we wore each other's hands and cried.</div>
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The other one asked my opinion.</div>
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The other one offered to help.</div>
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And the other one asked for a chance,</div>
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but I'm saving all those for the boy who doesn't catch them.</div>
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I'm not sure why I'm still screaming for you,</div>
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somewhere inside the cavities of my tormented hours.</div>
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"I don't know why you're waiting around," he told me. "He only likes you when he needs you."</div>
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But the majority of my soul is set on giving you another day.</div>
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Because I see more than a somber playlist and unsent texts.</div>
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I saw you on the street, September, with a bottle of something in your hands</div>
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and your honest humor across a parking lot.</div>
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Thinking, "there he is," as your eyes got wide and your mood changed.</div>
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But you quietly returned to your high collar happiness and stoic mind.</div>
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I saw you there, though, despite the crinkled frown that followed us to bed.</div>
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And I know you're in there.</div>
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So write off my patience as another fictional trait,</div>
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dump me in the harbor like I'm useless,</div>
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send me on my way.</div>
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But I see you.</div>
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I see you.</div>
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Addisonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02671333130388735028noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2430428597152402151.post-59913009781572944122015-09-28T23:37:00.000-07:002015-09-28T23:37:02.817-07:0010 months later<div style="text-align: center;">
Today is September 28th, 2015.</div>
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I've been biting down on the abstract for about ten months now, writing poems about anonymous heartbreaks and platonic endings. I've been forging daydreams out of realities, and convincing myself that college math isn't the workout they swore it would be, and now my hours are rolling under my feet so fast you can almost hear the landslide.</div>
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Today is September 28th, 2015 and one year ago, I was cross-legged on a skinny bed in a farm town, halfway between creativity and depression, where the only laughter you know is between a phone screen and Aspirin. </div>
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I was in easy love, </div>
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romantic and faultless, enigmatic and spectacular. The kind of love where he'd drive two hours to take me to dinner, then drive two hours the other way. Where every text had a response and every leg felt less like a marathon. </div>
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Where our words bore no barriers.</div>
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Where the bushes were unbeaten.</div>
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Where he was he and I was me.</div>
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But today is September 28th.</div>
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2015.</div>
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I wear my stubbornness softer and my hair down more.</div>
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I've got last week on repeat, setting my frontal lobe on fire when I realized happiness doesn't come in a can but it's draining out my bank account. I've got last week on repeat, when his eyes caught flame and he spilled sarcasm all over the kitchen floor and </div>
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everything was fine.</div>
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"Everything is fine."</div>
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I save those words til Monday rolls around.</div>
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Barriers are for leaping.</div>
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Bushes are for trimming.</div>
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He is he and I am me.</div>
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But we,</div>
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we are segregated souls on two different edges,</div>
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with scenery of two different kinds.</div>
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I can almost hear him saying, "I hope you're still around when I get back."</div>
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Well, I hope you hold your ground when I go black.</div>
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And I hope I hold my ground,</div>
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when the ground can't hold itself,</div>
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and oxygen becomes a figment of our imaginations.</div>
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I hope I hold my ground</div>
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when gravity grabs us both.</div>
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And I hope you don't cry when you read this.</div>
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I hope you don't.</div>
<br />Addisonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02671333130388735028noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2430428597152402151.post-48121085243093514092015-09-20T22:45:00.001-07:002015-09-20T22:45:16.451-07:00when you slam the door.<div style="text-align: center;">
you use the term <i>best friends</i></div>
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but the only <i>best </i>in this <i>friendship</i></div>
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is the anxiety that's getting the <i>best </i>of me.</div>
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the rest of it is just yesterday's tears</div>
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laid out to dry on tomorrow's homework.</div>
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you cure yourself by creating problems,</div>
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a temper so hot it could curl my hair.</div>
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demons on the sidelines,</div>
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ready to challenge whatever play your eyes might miss.</div>
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I am not a switch you flick on and off when the mood changes.</div>
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I am not here to question your tears</div>
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and lean a shoulder in when I catch your eyes water.</div>
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I'm not even here to write.</div>
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I'm here for blank pages and James' criticism,</div>
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where we swear in our secrets and eye contact has more meaning</div>
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than our locked fingers ever could.</div>
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I'm here to lock fingers with him and him and</div>
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her idea and those words.</div>
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I'm here to edit his paper and her grammar,</div>
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correcting all the mistakes that body language couldn't mend.</div>
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I'm here because my money is on this bed and this room,</div>
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but I didn't sign up to be shot down,</div>
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and my money is not on the quiet 9:00's,</div>
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and the crying 8:00's,</div>
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and the curfew that your happiness holds strong to.</div>
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I do not pay for your constant complaints</div>
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and the compliments that get lost on the way in.</div>
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I am not shelling out my bought hours</div>
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for the tears and the turmoil you're spending on me.</div>
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There is nothing <i>best </i>about this.</div>
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And I would call this colorless,</div>
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but it's written in a blood too bold</div>
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to be overlooked.</div>
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I know you're watching closely.</div>
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And I know you can hear me.</div>
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Scars don't scream like situations do,</div>
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so stop turning your head when the cuts ensue,</div>
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and stop pretending</div>
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like smiling is a sin</div>
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and laughter is a luxury you're not allowed into.</div>
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Stop pretending</div>
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like</div>
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we're</div>
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made</div>
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to</div>
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be</div>
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unhappy.</div>
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We're not.</div>
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We're not.</div>
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<br />Addisonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02671333130388735028noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2430428597152402151.post-47548270559596840052015-09-06T23:03:00.000-07:002015-09-06T23:05:02.930-07:00"nothing gold can stay" (frost, 1923)<div style="text-align: center;">
He keeps his fingers close to backspace keys,</div>
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ready and willing to deplete and delete as necessary.</div>
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He keeps his fingers close to backspace keys and far from hers,</div>
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intertwining only when the hour is late,</div>
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and he doesn't know how to treat her like gold,</div>
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but he watches her like gold,</div>
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and she wears a lot of gold.</div>
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But nothing between them is gold.</div>
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He wears her around his neck for five hours,</div>
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waiting and watching the clock change,</div>
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rehashing all the advice people gave him to </div>
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'play it cool.'</div>
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But cool is a lot warmer </div>
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than cold.</div>
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And I can't be the only one feeling the difference.</div>
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She would fix him before she ever thought about fixing herself.</div>
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She would fix him before fixing herself,</div>
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but he's more of the put-your-own-oxygen-mask-on-</div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">She would leave herself before she left him,</span></div>
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but he's more of the late-hour-last-minute,</div>
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watch-you-from-across-the-room kind of guy.</div>
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She cuts herself on his edges,</div>
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mends herself on his smiles,</div>
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and dies when he plays it </div>
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and her heart rate goes with it.</div>
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She knows he keeps his fingers close to the backspace key,</div>
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and she knows her words are too important</div>
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for his fingers to own.</div>
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she isn't strong enough</div>
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<br />Addisonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02671333130388735028noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2430428597152402151.post-57825063654172603372015-09-01T22:29:00.004-07:002015-09-02T11:30:10.262-07:00heartaches and earthquakes.<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: inherit;">tonight I almost wrote the words "I'm done" across your screen.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">tonight I almost took hold of my time and walked away from you.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">tonight I almost changed your tomorrow.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">you didn't know this.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">electric words have a way of escaping your interest,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">just like I have a way of escaping your interest,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">and I don't deserve to be overlooked.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">nobody does.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">(especially those you promised your energy on)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">and you didn't promise me anything,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">but hearts are easily mangled by words we don't say,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">and responses we don't make,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">and conversations that get stuck to our tongues.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">tonight I almost changed your tomorrow.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">tonight I almost changed my tomorrow.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">there would have been more oxygen, tomorrow.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">there would have been more time for piano keys and boy bands.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">there would have been more boxes filled and tape used,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">fewer texts and less worries,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">if I had changed my tomorrow.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">and tonight I almost thought of you,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">sharing eyes and thoughts and lips across the lawn,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">cracking jokes about <i>her </i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">cracking smiles at <i>me,</i></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">and cracking a bottle open in honor of all we share:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">memories,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"> high school, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">letters, </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">kisses.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">you kiss me like I'm rare to begin with,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">but talk to me like I'm temporary,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">and, sir, that makes me want to stain these pages black and blue</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">and run.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">eight hundred days of hell being raised,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">of bodies burning and sins scourging and </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">me changing.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I paid my dues when I purchased my patience</span><span style="font-family: inherit;">.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;">They're </span>both<span style="font-family: inherit;"> gone, now.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I wonder how much oxygen you'd have in the morning</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">if I changed your tomorrow.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">if I gave you back what our lips have in common.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit; font-size: x-small;">(each other.)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">if I returned your kisses</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">and stepped aside.</span></div>
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I wonder how easy you'd breathe these hours,<br />
and how heavy you'd feel.<br />
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I wonder if you'd fight me or fear me,<br />
if I changed your tomorrow.<br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">but you and I both know</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I'll never find out.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br /></span>Addisonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02671333130388735028noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2430428597152402151.post-68128020404691143582015-08-21T23:01:00.000-07:002015-08-23T11:05:39.487-07:00oh.<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: inherit;">he drops love words like atom bombs,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">but his journal's never heard your name.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">he wrote the book on poker faces,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">dealing out diamonds and hiding all the aces,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">leaving conversations open like sores,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">but closing all deals.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">there's no room for negotiation.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">"oh."</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">he's got you believing in endless weekends and infinities,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">smashing your clock against the wall to prove that time stops,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">praying to music you wouldn't care for otherwise.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">he's got you wearing all black,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">rearranging your playlists and hours,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">cutting your dollars in half and dyeing your spirit to match his eyes.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">you do not deserve these words.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">you are not worth my writings.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">you are not worth the knuckle cracks and ever-moving arthritis,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">that's just a few young years from tackling my right hand.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">you are not worth my right hand,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">or my left hand,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">(where you might try to leave your mark someday).</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">you are not worth it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">i don't care if your money had a mouth,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">you are not worth a double take to my watch,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">you paint my talents gold, but my days grey.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">my fears red, my intellect brown,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">you see me as a project,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">but allow me to teach you a little something school couldn't.</span></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: inherit;">books and God and hope and flowers,</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: inherit;">all things good will give you power.</span></i></div>
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<i><span style="font-family: inherit;">rumors and hate and money and pride,</span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">and my condolences to your future,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">where it burns crimson and gold.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I'll only ever see it from a distance.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Because you are not worth the flames.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">You are not worth the flames.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">but most eggs break easy;</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">but I thought I had more time to solve you.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">you like me better in restaurant corners, post-drink, treating the waiter well and sharing food across wood tables.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">you like me better when he isn't there.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">when she isn't there.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">nobody's ever made eye contact with as much meaning,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">and you said I had a lot of meaning.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">and I wouldn't mind being your right hand,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">but at least let me know where the key to your skull is,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">and be less afraid of love lyrics.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">but you shouldn't let that stop you.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">so unscrew your intensity,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">take a few breaths and extend a few arms,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">because people are more important than worried looks.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">lyrics should upset you,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">and souls should be louder than the butterflies you feel</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">when your lungs and your tongue tie together</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">and make feelings impossible.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">feelings are possible.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">this is possible.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">this is all possible.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">and I will knock on your soul until you untie your tongue</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">and your steel snaps,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">because despite what you think about love,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">(or whatever </span><i style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;">this</i><span style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace;"> could be, if you let it)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">it's worth a shot.</span></div>
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Addisonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02671333130388735028noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2430428597152402151.post-45912830826177261292015-07-09T00:10:00.000-07:002015-07-09T00:10:39.382-07:00you will never read this.<div style="text-align: center;">
You will never read this.</div>
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You will never read this,</div>
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or see this,</div>
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or smell this,</div>
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or run your underage hands along this.</div>
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You will never hear this from me.</div>
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You'll catch wind of my mistakes,</div>
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my name will change color in your mind,</div>
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while you seek safer hands to occupy yours.</div>
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You will hear about me from other mouths.</div>
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Tongues will break and heads will roll</div>
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and</div>
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you will never hear this from me.</div>
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<br /></div>
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But you'll hear me from other mouths,</div>
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where people hold mistakes high </div>
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and successes don't make for conversation</div>
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like tragedies do.</div>
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<br /></div>
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You'll hear me from other mouths,</div>
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where they paint me like a Pollock and hate me like a Warhol,</div>
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where they'll tell stories of the mess I made and the people who passed,</div>
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because my problems were louder than my laughter.</div>
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You will never read this.</div>
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But in case you do,</div>
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<br /></div>
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I died every hour of three years.</div>
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I died between every street and sentence,</div>
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taking more prayers than breaths,</div>
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where I was broken from my knees down,</div>
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against the bedroom door.</div>
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Like filling your lungs with sand,</div>
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and slamming your heart against the wall,</div>
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over and</div>
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over and</div>
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over.</div>
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It hurt like hell,</div>
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but God breathed for me.</div>
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Mercy never clocked out.</div>
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I died between batting eyes and bad dates,</div>
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I cried between classes and cut after hours,</div>
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I cracked my knuckles until they broke,</div>
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I cracked them for you</div>
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and you and me and</div>
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me and you and me</div>
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and us</div>
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and her</div>
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and him.</div>
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I died and died again.</div>
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I died until it didn't hurt.</div>
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But God breathed for me,</div>
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and mercy never clocked out.</div>
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Mercy never clocked out.</div>
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Mercy kept me up at night.</div>
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Mercy held my hair up as I bled out on the bedroom floor,</div>
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Mercy held my heart up as I washed the red out of the carpet.</div>
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Mercy never clocked out,</div>
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and God never left.</div>
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Maybe my eyes are too wrong to see into.</div>
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Maybe I'm too off to deserve good.</div>
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And maybe you'll grab me by the coattails of my mistakes,</div>
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strangle that in your head,</div>
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wash me out of your mind forever.</div>
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But the pain never clocked out,</div>
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so I'll never clock out.</div>
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For three years.</div>
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But God will never leave me.</div>
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And you will never read this.</div>
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Addisonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02671333130388735028noreply@blogger.com13tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2430428597152402151.post-63322095796498037872015-06-18T23:37:00.001-07:002015-06-18T23:37:58.123-07:0024 scars later<div style="text-align: center;">
I've got 11:09 tears on my steering wheel.</div>
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I've got a tight heart pinned to my ribcage, waiting for 17-year-old Me to make an appearance.</div>
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I've got 18 letters from 24 months and friends who think I don't understand.</div>
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But I've got a thousand of his words, </div>
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and words, </div>
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I understand.</div>
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I've got my soul making up words close to 'choke' and 'chain' and 'tight' to toy with my faltering heart rate.</div>
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I've got hours and hours built up between us,</div>
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even though the clock on my collarbone has been going off for 24 months.</div>
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<br /></div>
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I've got a clock gripping my lungs, clawing its way to 17-year-old Me.</div>
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<br /></div>
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But 17-year-old Me died when the scenery changed and the love letters expired.</div>
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I've got 18 letters and they're all expired.</div>
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I've got good intentions and an innocence the color of cotton.</div>
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I've got 24 months of chaos on my back, tied down by a brickload of forget-me-not moments,</div>
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and friends who think I don't understand.</div>
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I've got friends who don't understand.</div>
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I've got friends who never called happiness a bottle, or pleasure a pill, </div>
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who grew up on morning prayers and caffeine spills and called their mistakes 'sins'.</div>
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I've got sins and mistakes all jammed into my ribcage, </div>
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deep eyes from the tears that tore through,</div>
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and 11 heartbreaks pounding out my eardrums.</div>
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The rest of these scars,</div>
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they're just aftermath.</div>
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From the depression.</div>
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I've got torn skin and an electric pulse.</div>
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I've got less hair and more fears.</div>
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And I've got friends who think I don't understand.</div>
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And me,</div>
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who wishes</div>
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they were right.</div>
<br />Addisonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02671333130388735028noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2430428597152402151.post-83902460726707076802015-05-31T22:48:00.001-07:002015-05-31T22:48:59.783-07:00cement<div style="text-align: center;">
Mama told me to build myself out of cement.</div>
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Mama told me to paint my walls whatever colors I chose,</div>
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but to keep painting </div>
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and keep painting.</div>
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Mama told me to build myself out of cement so when people pointed their arrows,</div>
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I'd stand still.</div>
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I used to think <i>she </i>was cement, that girl with the lovers eyes.</div>
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I used to think <i>she </i>was cement and I was wood,</div>
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crushed by her rock words </div>
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like an axe to a wall.</div>
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But cement is made of raw love, broken sweat, and forget-me-nots.</div>
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She, she might have cooler air in her soul,</div>
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but all she breathes is fire.</div>
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And her soul is see through.</div>
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A mad combination of glass and plastic,</div>
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easy on the eyes</div>
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but easy to break.</div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">And now I see through it.</span></div>
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Her frame cracks fast, and shoots back glass,</div>
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but cement doesn't go that easy.</div>
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And her,</div>
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her soul is see through.</div>
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There's no hiding the arrows on her back,</div>
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and the shotgun in her pocket.</div>
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Her love is not as tall as her frame,</div>
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or as high as her pride,</div>
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and it's casting a mean shadow of self-doubt across the pavement.</div>
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We can see through her,</div>
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where her shadow sits, straight and tall, </div>
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glaring and grimacing and angry and tight, </div>
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with arrows in its closed fists and insecurities laid like playing cards all around it.</div>
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But those paper arrows can't crack cement.</div>
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She will not outlast us.</div>
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We've got cement souls and painted paradigms,</div>
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and we're too busy admiring our murals</div>
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to feel the criticism</div>
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strike our backs.</div>
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She may stand tall,</div>
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but that only means her shadow is larger.</div>
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And I've always preferred light to dark.</div>
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I've always preferred brush to gun,</div>
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and paint to blood.</div>
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I only wish her soul could see</div>
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that razor blades don't fix people</div>
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like paintbrushes do.</div>
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<br />Addisonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02671333130388735028noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2430428597152402151.post-75866384245847650492015-05-30T00:23:00.001-07:002015-05-30T00:23:49.823-07:00cigarettes & diamonds<div style="text-align: center;">
I never wanted to be a sinner, but I never fit like a saint.</div>
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My edges are hard like rock and cold like ice that never melts.</div>
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I hear they call those 'diamonds'</div>
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but, darling, I'm not clear enough or valuable enough to fit your ring finger</div>
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(and I'm not going to let you take mine).</div>
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My bedtimes don't crash into yours,</div>
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but we crash and collide like minds that don't sleep,</div>
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and we smoke like wood that's too wet for burning.</div>
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But, boy, who said good girls can't light you like a cigarette?</div>
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I don't smoke like you do,</div>
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but I can light fires.</div>
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I may not fill your lungs with ash,</div>
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but the burn marks from my words </div>
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hurts all the same.</div>
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My heart has stopped hearts,</div>
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and good hearts are good at biting into bad hearts</div>
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like poison apples.</div>
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Good girls eat poison apples.</div>
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Bad girls admit it.</div>
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We spit but we don't admit,</div>
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we just have rage playlists and cry playlists.</div>
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We count our calories, but they create marks in our hands,</div>
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yet here we are, and we still</div>
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cut and cry and cut and cry.</div>
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We have our moments.</div>
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Oh, boy, do we have our moments.</div>
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We overdose on passed notes,</div>
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pencil marks and Valentine's Day's that didn't happen.</div>
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But boy, do we have our moments.</div>
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You like loose ends and untied tongues.</div>
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I like you.</div>
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You, without your trail of smoke and ashes,</div>
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the dollar signs on your bad habits.</div>
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I like you with your lungs clean and your eyes mean.</div>
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But you, you like loose ends and untied tongues.</div>
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You act like a knot,</div>
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but I see a noose.</div>
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And my neck is no stranger to your tight hands.</div>
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You like good girls.</div>
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You like cracking diamonds and lighting cigarettes.</div>
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And darling, those cigarettes will kill you.</div>
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Any good girl knows that.</div>
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Addisonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02671333130388735028noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2430428597152402151.post-38943092742462500892015-04-28T13:56:00.000-07:002015-04-28T13:56:33.384-07:00unplugged soul<div style="text-align: center;">
I showed him my blog if he promised never to speak of it again. </div>
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He said, "I'll never say a word about it. Promise."</div>
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And he never did.</div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">Until he passed this to me as he left, the last day of Art History, and whispered, "You didn't say anything about writing."</span></div>
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"She's got an unplugged soul.</div>
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She's got an unplugged soul, but a part of her keeps singing.</div>
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She's got an unplugged soul, lighting me like a bass.</div>
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She wrote the book on good girls,</div>
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then strangled me with spun gold chain.</div>
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She's got good girl with a shot of shame, under those good girl eyes where</div>
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she drives words like wheels.</div>
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She's got city eyes, metal eyes, for concrete towns and paper boys.</div>
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She looks like now</div>
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and talks like infinity.</div>
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But I'm too wiry for good girls.</div>
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She likes labels and I like her.</div>
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I like her raw nails and crooked knees.</div>
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She's got cold hands and yesterday's stains,</div>
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but I like her lips.</div>
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I like playing back the hours of those midnight lips.</div>
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She's made of Shakespeare and seashells,</div>
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while I'm still cold on coffee she won't drink</div>
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and time she won't give me.</div>
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But time,</div>
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it can be stolen,</div>
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and she's the greatest thief I know.</div>
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The one who so casually steals my soul.</div>
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She, she is art</div>
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and I am history.</div>
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I am solitude,</div>
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stolen by a pair of lovers eyes and a magnificent mind.</div>
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She is art</div>
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and I am history.</div>
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Beating to the same drum of the same soul,</div>
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the same unplugged soul,</div>
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making music and madness,</div>
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playing heaven and hell,</div>
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and I like her.</div>
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I like her."</div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">-JG</span></div>
<br />Addisonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02671333130388735028noreply@blogger.com14tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2430428597152402151.post-44915981691907041212015-04-17T09:14:00.001-07:002015-04-17T09:14:47.529-07:00never break a writer's heart.<div style="text-align: center;">
Never break a writer's heart.</div>
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Never break her, never break him,</div>
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never chip important pieces from their morning-after shoulders.</div>
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Never sink knives into their sweet skin,</div>
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or their sour skin,</div>
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or their soft-as-silk skin,</div>
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they know how to turn blood into beauty.</div>
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And they'll bleed you out just to prove it.</div>
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They'll bleed you dry with your own sharp tongue,</div>
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they'll grip your lungs with tomorrow's tears.</div>
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They'll suffocate you with their should-have's,</div>
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pull you from your High and Mighty to cut you down</div>
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piece by piece</div>
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word by word</div>
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letter by letter.</div>
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They use the alphabet to cut across your palms,</div>
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drawing atmospheres in your dazed eyes,</div>
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staining you with a color that can't be cleansed,</div>
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so people know the danger in good hair and a wicked smile.</div>
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There's 70 grams of danger in good hair</div>
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and 200 in that wicked smile.</div>
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But I don't need to tell you about it.</div>
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Never break a writer's heart.</div>
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She'll strain and she'll stain you,</div>
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until your nobody's color</div>
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and nobody's mistake.</div>
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And then she'll fall for you all over again.</div>
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Like clockwork.</div>
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Addisonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02671333130388735028noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2430428597152402151.post-75411710342225719802015-03-31T17:30:00.002-07:002015-03-31T17:39:18.521-07:00atmospheres.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Broken hearts have atmospheres.</div>
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Broken hearts have atmospheres with stained stars,</div>
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with milky ways the color of blood</div>
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and constellations that lack maps and meanings.</div>
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Broken hearts have far-gone suns that eclipse behind their burning earths,</div>
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where broken hearts are breaking hearts<br />
and words are becoming ashes.</div>
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Broken hearts have atmospheres full of moons</div>
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with full moons</div>
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and midnight moons and <i>Goodnight, Moon</i>'s </div>
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and half-moons with half-truths, where they keep their half-okay's.</div>
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Broken hearts have atmospheres full of half-okay's.</div>
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Atmospheres the color of metal and the scent of death,</div>
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lacking oxygen</div>
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with sharp stars,</div>
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where they scratch your soul</div>
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and turn your veins into electric storms.</div>
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But broken hearts have atmospheres,</div>
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with veins that map the constellations</div>
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and flames that fuse into God's favorite stars.</div>
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Atmospheres of dying light</div>
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and learning light</div>
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and birthing light</div>
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and living light.</div>
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Atmospheres of blue veins and red blood,</div>
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white lines and damage fines,</div>
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black and gold and stars that stain.</div>
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Broken hearts have atmospheres made of bloodstains</div>
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and black hours.</div>
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But broken hearts have atmospheres,</div>
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and atmospheres<br />
never break.</div>
Addisonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02671333130388735028noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2430428597152402151.post-29061410981613781402015-03-23T12:35:00.002-07:002015-03-23T12:36:10.683-07:00spring<div style="text-align: center;">
Remember when we built walls?</div>
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Out of brick and wire and metal and glass.</div>
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We built walls around our trees and our toys</div>
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to keep the neighbors out and the secrets in.</div>
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Walls too high and too thick</div>
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for conversation.</div>
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Remember when we built walls?</div>
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Out of dates and hands and pathetic glares.</div>
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We turned algebra to geometry</div>
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trying to solve our x's</div>
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but we only built walls around our exes.</div>
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And our exes,</div>
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they know our blind spots</div>
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better than strangers who cheat red lights.</div>
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March is made of summer's first breaths,</div>
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and school's final nightmares.</div>
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The echoes of July's fireworks are starting to sound like a prelude,</div>
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and the rain is begging us to <i>let it go.</i></div>
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We ripped our enemies from the earth like weeds</div>
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and weeded out true friends</div>
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until our garden turned color.</div>
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Time doesn't trust us,</div>
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that's why it stops for no one.</div>
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But oh, how I wish it would only listen while we're kissing</div>
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so it could be irregular like our pulses.</div>
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I wish it would obey the stoplights and yield when we turned the corner.</div>
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I wish it would listen as we wrote our words in the sand.</div>
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Remember when we wrote our words in the sand?</div>
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High tide stole the sentences with our footprints,</div>
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and carried it all far enough away</div>
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that the echoes are drowned out by April's preludes.</div>
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Echoes are artificial.</div>
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Just like those walls.</div>
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Just like those words.</div>
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But we,</div>
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we are far from it.</div>
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Too far to hear it.</div>
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Too far for it to matter</div>
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anymore.</div>
Addisonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02671333130388735028noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2430428597152402151.post-12206215212198349832015-03-01T21:25:00.000-08:002015-03-01T21:25:08.847-08:00requiem to sad history.<div style="text-align: center;">
You don't listen until your eyes do.</div>
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You're analyzing paper words and wire lines</div>
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but you aren't listening </div>
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until it's screaming at you from these electric pages.</div>
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I can hear your heartbeat through cyberspace.</div>
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An ex-best-friend that never left on bad terms,</div>
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but never came on good ones.</div>
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Your petty silence.</div>
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I'm so glad I left this town,</div>
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even though I dropped my poems on your doorsteps</div>
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when you couldn't even make it to mine before I left.</div>
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I was alone </div>
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the night before I left.</div>
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And she'll roll her eyes at this,</div>
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but she rolls her eyes around anything with a heart and hands:</div>
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raw love, </div>
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feelings, </div>
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throaty goodbyes.</div>
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She rolls her eyes when I talk too loud,</div>
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but I'm not crying wolf to the girls who won't listen</div>
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until it's screaming at them</div>
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from this electric page.</div>
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Those who pull a curtain of pretty hair</div>
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between anything with a broken heart</div>
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and wet eyes</div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">(and pretend that it's blocking out the sound)</span>.</div>
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Too good at walking out of beating hearts.</div>
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The best at making silence and mourning nothing.</div>
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I'm so glad I left this town</div>
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with you in it.</div>
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I tried to die once,</div>
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eighteen years deep,</div>
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surrounded by pavement screams and birthday candles.</div>
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I had too many friends</div>
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and none who cared,</div>
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so I prayed for a birthday party</div>
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in all-black with broken shoulders and a bad goodbye letter.</div>
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You probably didn't know about that.</div>
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You probably didn't know about the mercy prayers,</div>
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the "take-me" prayers,</div>
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the December 12 facedown-on-the-pavement prayers</div>
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when it rained</div>
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and I begged for heaven to rip my soul from my body.</div>
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I wasn't brave enough to do it.</div>
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I wasn't scared enough to leave.</div>
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But now it's nailing every corner of this paper town,</div>
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so do you believe me now?</div>
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You probably would have stopped rolling your eyes,</div>
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if I had stopped breathing.</div>
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But you would have heard my cries like a hailstorm</div>
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if I'd taken my last breaths</div>
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on this electric page.</div>
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I know how it goes.</div>
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I know how you go.</div>
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I watch you go every day.</div>
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My body was soaked in gasoline</div>
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and my soul had matches for fingers,</div>
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but by the time I told you about my heart,</div>
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all you watched me with</div>
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was your eyes.</div>
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You rolled your eyes.</div>
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You always do.</div>
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So I'm glad I left you behind,</div>
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after being left behind.</div>
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Maybe that stone heart would have started beating,</div>
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if mine had stopped.</div>
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But I won't do it.</div>
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We are six seconds from breaking.</div>
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We are six too many holes in our ribcages,</div>
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carved like six-foot-deep pieces of Earth, shuddering as we lay our sorrows in her.</div>
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We are six-times-four hours that matter</div>
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when the world changes color and we change color.</div>
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But we are six lightyears past caring about the hour of the day</div>
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or who or why or when</div>
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because we're six feet above tragedy</div>
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and burying it doesn't hide the burn marks.</div>
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It only sets us on fire.</div>
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Everyone's hearts beat a little louder today.</div>
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Twelve hundred drums pace the hallways</div>
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but its pulsing beat is missing a few ticks and tocks.</div>
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We are six songs that muffle the pain,</div>
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with the volume on loud</div>
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and our thoughts on loud</div>
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and we're</div>
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six steps from hitting the floor with prayers that cut our tongues in half.</div>
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We are six ideas that never seemed to stop the bleeding,</div>
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and an epidemic that's biting down on our lungs</div>
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and coaxing our friends to fall</div>
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six feet under.</div>
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We are six holes in our chests,</div>
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making room for breathless bodies when they could've breathed in ours.</div>
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<i>You could've breathed in ours.</i></div>
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"Fix this, fix this, fix this."</div>
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But we're six feet from making any sense at all.</div>
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You watch their chairs empty</div>
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while sympathy sprays the walls.</div>
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You listen to teachers cry,</div>
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carrying speeches and sad lyrics in your back pockets.</div>
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"There's too many tragedies within those walls,"</div>
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but those aren't the walls that wrote the tragedies.</div>
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Those walls did.</div>
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Those heart-rib-walls.</div>
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That stone cold structure keeping their sorrows in</div>
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It's the wall around his brainstem,</div>
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the devil on her wrists.</div>
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The bad bricks piling up along his spine.</div>
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"Fix this."</div>
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Our "why's" muddle the ground and get lost five feet down.</div>
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They can't hear us six feet below.</div>
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we can hear</div>
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them.</div>
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He's playing with my fears.</div>
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He's got hands full of money,</div>
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paying taxes on his compliments,</div>
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and charging 100% of my interest.</div>
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He's wearing his bedroom eyes (and hers and hers),</div>
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but his bedroom lies</div>
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are still hidden under his tongue.</div>
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His tally marks are tall,</div>
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and they litter campus with pointed glares,</div>
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turning this town into a needle-stack with no hay.</div>
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He's looking at me like <i>hey.</i></div>
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But I was taught to look for devils,</div>
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and they climb shoulders.</div>
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They climb shoulders and crack spines.</div>
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He's walking with a limp.</div>
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He's walking with a limp,</div>
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from the crack in his spine where the devil took some of his backbone,</div>
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but you wouldn't notice from his bedroom eyes.</div>
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His steady eyes.</div>
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His meet-me-after eyes.</div>
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You wouldn't notice the crack in his spine.</div>
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It's not as loud as his cherry lips,</div>
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where he:</div>
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b) plays with your name</div>
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c) screws with your name</div>
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d) screws with you</div>
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You can't tell morning or night through those bedroom eyes.</div>
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You can't tell Sunday or sin through those bedroom eyes.</div>
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You don't know heaven or hell through those bedroom eyes.</div>
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But if the devil cracks spines,</div>
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then the devil climbs.</div>
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Those bedroom eyes don't belong to him.</div>
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Your bedroom eyes don't belong to him.</div>
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But you.</div>
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You with your nervous eyes,</div>
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and forget-me-not attitude.</div>
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He lit you like yesterday's news, </div>
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but your only job was to kindle.</div>
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He doesn't like fires but he lights fires.</div>
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You, you would know.</div>
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Don't cry, darling,</div>
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all he has is bedroom eyes.</div>
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Bedroom eyes that don't belong to him.</div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">You always will.</span></div>
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<br />Addisonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02671333130388735028noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2430428597152402151.post-66937861276909720772015-02-14T12:10:00.000-08:002015-02-14T12:11:08.923-08:00valentine's day 2.0<div style="text-align: center;">
Pink, like the blanket under my pillow.</div>
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The cream cheese frosting he would twirl on the white-wood table, 1999,</div>
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baby hands and bad aim.</div>
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He got a little better by 2014,</div>
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but shot all his sprinkles in the right direction</div>
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with the wrong intentions.</div>
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Hitting lips and missing hearts.</div>
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Editing feelings as though he had the copyright.</div>
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He wiped her heartache on the windshield,</div>
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but, I swear, I warned him not to be the guy that tastes everybody's X's and nobody's O's.</div>
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They're less lovely when apart.</div>
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X: must-not-be-named</div>
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O: the infinities</div>
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X: he cut you off his list</div>
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O: a lookalike for 0.</div>
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X: white chalk cross-outs</div>
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O: using red pen in case he ever forgets you.</div>
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Red, like the bouquet of roses Harrison Brimley isn't sending me for the first time in 3 years.</div>
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Red like the little flags that scoured our battle fields.</div>
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Red like the streetlights we ignored.</div>
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Red like him, </div>
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white like him, </div>
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black like him.</div>
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Black like midnight,</div>
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a shade beyond navy,</div>
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when it's dark enough to X and O without seeing the pitch signal.</div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">(It's a curveball, darling)</span></div>
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When it's cold enough to start counting.</div>
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Cold, the opposite of his hands.</div>
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R, the letter we forget in FebRuary.</div>
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February, when everything's red.</div>
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February, when everything's dead.</div>
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Today.</div>
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Tomorrow.</div>
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Thursday.</div>
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Writing X's and O's on our paper hearts</div>
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like paper dreams</div>
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with paper endings</div>
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because there's 24 hours of love today,</div>
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but paper</div>
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lasts a little bit </div>
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longer.</div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">xoxo, </span></div>
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